Life oh life

My big eyes hurt. They hurt not because I have been crying about a
silly boy but becoz I am typing this post at midnight when I shud be
sleeping and my eyes are always glued to this blackberry and my work
PC screen. But sore eyes won't get in the way of me and this moment.
This is a momentous occasion, I am chatty and there is COMPLETE
silence around me. This is priceless. I can actually think and hear my
inner thoughts.

Well, Hello. Hi :) Life on my end is so fast paced. Its like I'm in an
underground train with no stops. It just keeps moving. Funny coz this
time last year I felt like I was waiting at a train stop, for a train
that didn't seem to be arriving. Life has changed. I couldn't have
predicted my current situation three months ago. I had just quit my
job and was ready for uncertainty. Now I find myself in a rather
predictable routine and who would've guessed I'd be here.

A scary thing I try not to admit is that I get bored of routine. I
love the thrilling experience of not knowing, daring to take risks,
moving forward into something new, kind of like reinventing myself as
I grow up. I am soooo happy in my job, I really am, but do I have
staying power? Guess we'll have to wait and see...

I miss sex. I don't get it these days. Actually, its been a WHILE. I
also miss that stalkerish company that only comes with a boyfriend.
Sharing a bed and cuddling is as rare as shooting stars nowadays and
getting kissed only happens with meaningless randoms that have the
taste of alcohol pasted to their tongues.

It is, however, amazingly refreshing to answer to noone but me. To
wake up everyday and just be able to be myself, independent of someone
else. To not have to bicker with someone or constantly take another
person's feelings into consideration when I'm about to get up to no
good. Ah...the single life!

I have started making pretty skirts that I am selling at rather fair
prices. My only problem is juggling work and meeting the demand for my
skirts. As is I am failing dismally to get this fashion ish started.
Life is hard and growing up even harder, fuck what ya heard!

I'm off to sleep now. The day ahead of me is calling and at this rate
I won't have battery to answer if I don't recharge now...

God's speed. Xxx

Susha

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